This article emphasizes the experience of the emergence of homosexuality during adolescence for writers such as Yukio Mishima and Hervé Guibert and their accounts of it. From the beginning it seems to be a fantasy enactment of the pubertal scene, mixing incest, abjection and the fascination for horror. This text questions the outcome of the pubertal scene and the importance of the drives activated by a sensory and perceptive intensity, that these two writers bring into the foreground throughout their autobiographic writing. Moreover, the article suggests that we distinguish between what is the order of perversion and more precisely the question of a perverse construction.